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WHO SAID YOU DONT QUALIFY?
July.18.2010

As most of my journal entries here have started off, "its been a while since I've blogged on this site." I'm currently trying to manage my time in order that I may do such. Not sure if anyone is following me. I'd hope so, or else I'm typing to myself. AYE! That is cool with me. So the topic today is Qualifications Based off WHOSE Judgment. It's about to get hot in here!

Who said you dont qualify? Who has the right to tell us if we do or not? This qualification is based off the activity of being a vessel for God. Recently I have seen a few students one in particular cut off and mistreated because of who he was outside of their interactions with him. For example, he goes to places like parties, hangs with the wrong crowd, and etc... outside of their presence. When he is within their presence he shows great potential to be a great vessel for GOD. However, the people have already written him off and invest not in his salvation, leadership growth, or future. They invest in the emotional scars, loneliness, and the convincing voice of the devil who tells them that they dont qualify. They may not know they do, but I in spirit discern such.
This leads to the person having to push through to be proven or stop pushing because one doesnt believe that he can. But does it even matter if MAN says that they dont believe he qualifies. I dont think its up to us to decide. Man and their private religious practices such as leadership teams, and ministry boards, and etc... is getting to the point where GOD will destroy everything MAN has built if they continue to disqualify people GOD has qualified.
So what he participates in things not of GOD! Does that mean that the leader in him cant be opened to what it means to serve as a leader and vessel of God so that he can choose accordingly to what he really wants. If you dont offer something then how can he know that its available to him. He tells you that he wants to be a leader. He tells you that he wants to grow. But you instead invest all of your time on those who ALREADY KNOW that they are leaders or who you think qualify and are no where near qualifying as much as GOD wants them to.
I cry for the underdog. It hurts me to see one walk away down that sidewalk all alone because one said that they dont qualify. You can read this and try to defend the reason why we do such things as have small circles of teams and have a picture of what WE WANT it to look like. You can say that they arent holy or perfect and they dont walk their lives as a leader. Answer this question for me!
DID YOU WALK LIKE ONE BEFORE YOU WERE HERE?
ARE YOU EVEN PERFECT NOW?
IF WE EXPOSED ALL YOUR MESS ENCLOSED WOULD YOU QUALIFY?

We dont qualify based off what we do! We qualify based off who we are and WHAT GOD WANTS US TO BE. See if GOD says we qualify who are you to say we dont. Take a look at his disciples and ask yourself was it their actions and who they use to be that qualified them or was it what JESUS knew they could be that qualified them.
We all qualify. But if we arent told that and if no one invest in us then we cant be what was never exposed to us. We can only be what is. And if those people mentioned in the beginning continue to disqualify people based off what they do outside of THEIR presence then that young man who has captured my heart will be continue to be exposed to what he knows. Therefore, I have taken him as my own! I will invest in him as GOD invest in me! I know he qualifies and he wants to know he qualifies. And we will prove he qualifies with the help of GOD.
It would pierce my heart if I walked away from the mission to walk with and in front of him to show him who he can be. I'd rather have a leadership team of learners than to have a leadership team of those we think qualify based of what they do and not their heart. Even if the people leading qualify based off their heart and what they do, it wouldnt hurt to have a few who qualify off their heart and not what they do so that they can learn. When we shut the door for the others to be exposed to greatness, we should think about ourselves. When we base who qualifies off of what we think they should be, we've lost GOD and his opinion and how can we be Christians without GOD?

Who said you dont qualify? Because you Do!

Well father Let this Day be your day and may your will be done. For by my will I fail and end up in a place of denial. For by your will I prosper and end up in a place of security. For I know you hold the day and who else is before you.

Amen!
9:54A.M.

GODS PROMISED ROAD ISNT AN EASY ONE

May.17.2010
It has been a long time since I've written a blog on this site. There has been much transition from the last time I wrote an entry. I took that step into the unfamiliar and settled in at Milwaukee, WI. Whoa! Why did I do that? You ask! We must go where God leads us and thats exactly what I did. It wasnt easy to leave as mentioned in my last blog but I did it. We cant live according the plans of our lives. We can only live according to the plans of God. Since I've been here in only two weeks I have had nothing but great moments with great people whom I know was sent from God. I'll be doing some youth ministry here. At this moment I'm working on some mentoring projects and working with a team to develop a collective vision for the youth ministy which will be taken place at the oh so great City on a Hill. I know this isn't going to be a smooth ride. It wasnt a smooth transition. However, I do thank God I can adapt easily to new environments.
Every person I have encountered has had something bad to say about the winter. It really isnt anything I'd like to think about right now. Thats one thing which I'm going to have to suck up and deal with. These young men and women here have already captured my heart. Lets get into some inspiration for those who have come to read for such.

I'm so ready to jump into action with ministry. It doesnt work like that though. I just got here two weeks ago. Hello. I'm missing home. I'm trying to find a ministry similiar to such and its just not working. Well I take that back I think I found one. Not smiliar but has the same heart. I've learned in just two weeks that JUST BECAUSE GOD PROMISED IT, DOES NOT MEAN THAT HE'LL MAKE IT EASY. That's so hard to accept. I know this is going to be challenging. Challenges are those which test who we really are and how much we really want it. For a moment I thought I was weak this weekend when I was corrected about a mistake I made. I was ready to go home. Really? Suck it up and learn. We dont like to make mistakes. But if we learn from those we make then we benefit from something which was supposed to be for the bad. See that's the optimistic person in me.

For those reading, know that when you decide to take a chance and embrace change in your life, everything is not going to look the same. Everything isn't going to be a breeze, especially if you're moving to an entire new environment where people don't look like you. If you really felt God called you, then you must accept that he'll continue to discipline you to prepare you for what he has made. Someone without knowledge of how to use what someone else built cant use it at all. Does that make sense. Embrace that you have to change. Keep your head up and chest out and be strong about it! Continue after the prize ahead. You have a mission! Moses didnt stop at Pharoah. He didnt stop when his people created false Gods. Job still trusted in God even though we know he had everything swiped from his authority and his personal life. Paul was preaching the word from a jail cell. Get it together and start accepting the dicispline for your journey up, not down the promised road God promised.

Well Father let this day be your day and may your will be done. For by my will I fail and end up in a place of denial. But by your will I prosper and end UP in a place of security cause I know that YOU HOLD THE DAY... AND WHO ELSE IS BEFORE YOU..

AMEN 3:15P.M.

THE SACRIFICES WE HAVE TO MAKE

Mar.13.2010

One thing that I've found hard to do is grow up. Im 22 years of age and one year left of college. And its hard at this moment to really accept that there are some things that I have to sacrifice in order to live a fruitful life. A grown man cant stay in his mother's house all his life and expect to build a family.

It feels like the cord is being detached again. At first it was an emotional problem. And the emotion was more fear than sadness. Im going to be sacrificing the familiar to embrace the unfamiliar. But its the unfamiliar which will make me stronger and a better person. We have to make sacrifices in order to grow. Its definitly one hard thing to do. Who said that it couldn't be done? You. Me. Even though I may fear what the outcome of living my life on my own and building the man of God in me will look like. I know that Im strong enough and have the will power along with God and faith to do such.

Friends arent easy ones to let go of. This I've had to do many times in my life. I wondered why its hard to have that one best friend instead of many close friends. Does that make sense? If Im growing and they aren't I can no longer hang out with them at their level. As a a leader Im called to lead. So therefore, they'll be close friends however distant enough not to interfere with the things that God is doing for me, or me myself.

These people are close to my heart. And to sacrifice doesn't necessarily mean to leave them forever. Jesus sacrficed his life and rose again on the third day to be with us in spirit. So we can sacrifice our relationships to grow and become a more mature person or gain what ever it is you are striving for. And then return to say hello, hang out in positive places, and etc... I cant tell you when that time is only you and God will know.

Leave my moms to build a better life and start a family. She wants that for me. Im not sacrificing our relationship. Im sacrificing the comfortable place of living and the familiar. Some friends I will have to say bye to until they get it together. Some friends I'll have to be distant from. There are other things which I'll have to sacrifice and I know what they are. What will you sacrifice in order to gain new life?

Well Father let this day be your day and may your will be done. For by my will I fail and end up in a place of denial. But by your will I prosper and end in a place of security cause I know that YOU HOLD THE DAY... AND WHO ELSE IS BEFORE YOU..

AMEN
10:30a.m.

MY HEART BREAKS FOR FAMILY

Mar. 7. 2010

Its been awhile since I've took the time to write on this wall and share portions of my journal with you. To be honest, if you read the December 24, blog you'll read that I was going though with just the basic journal entry that was given. And recently, I've been getting through such and preparing for the ministry ahead. So now, I'm back up on my feet. EVERYTHING IS NOT PROSPERING AS I WANT IT, BUT GOD IS MAKING THINGS HAPPEN RIGHT NOW SO THAT ONE DAY IT WILL... SO I WAIT.

My journal today is about FAMILY. I love my family. I'll say that again. I love my family. Now many can probably relate to what I'm going to briefly touch upon. A family who has heart for each other but is distant in relationship. Distance in relationship happens, if at all in the beginning stages of adulthood. We hear from each other every once in a while, but when we are with eachother its some great times together.

At first it took some time to get use to all four brothers being back in the house at one time when we live our own seperate lives. There were fusses and could have been fights like we were kids, but WERE A MATURE GROUP OF MEN. Its crazy how we're not kids anymore. I snapped a picture of my younger brother only a year young than me yesterday and I wanted to cry because I remember the life we lived when we had no responsibilities. Them were the days. We were close to each other. Now with our seperate lives, he has a child and a girlfriend at the age of 20. There's some other things that he could have avoided to have better living situations and that goes for all of us. However, I know that we arent poor, we have a roof under our heads, and we have food to eat. May not have a job or barely have a check, but God has us.

My brothers may not be at all close to God, but I know they will soon. WHY? Because I pray that God gives them opportunity and that he removes anything that would hinder them from having a chance at a decision whether ACCEPT GOD or NOT. And I will not push it on them. THATS NOT MY DUTY. Religion is a choice, not a TRADITION. I cry! I do! For the better in my family including my mother and father who are seperated. We all have hearts for each other. I just wish that the attitudes can go, the judgement can go, the alcohol and cigarettes can go, and THE POWER OF OUR LOVE ca CONTINUE HOLDING US TOGETHER. If we ever broke apart as a FAMILY, my heart would really hurt. NO ONE HAS A PERFECT FAMILY. I JUST WISH GOD WAS ON THE HEART OF EACH FAMILY MEMBER, SO THEY COULD HAVE A GREAT SPIRITUAL LIFE.

My life and my mother's life who are christians cant be their lives who aren't. They may be satisfied just the way they are. And I have accepted that, when at once I couldn't. I'M no better than they are, and they're no better than me, we just live in different worlds. BUT WHAT MAKES US A FAMILY, IS THAT WE CAN STILL LOVE EACH OTHER DESPITE THE DIFFERENT LIVES WE LIVE...

I LOVE MY FAMILY. MY HEART BREAKS FOR FAMILY. AND THATS YOUR FAMILY TOO... MY FAMILY MAY NOT BE LIKE YOUR FAMILY... BUT I UNDERSTAND WHAT IT MEANS TO HAVE ONE AND WANT MORE. YOUR FAMILY COULD BE WORSE THAN MINE AND YOU'RE SAYING THAT I'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHAT A BROKEN FAMILY IS. I MAY NOT, BUT A DISTANT FAMILY COMES CLOSE TO A BROKEN FAMILY. WE'RE NOT BROKEN BECAUSE WE STILL LOVE EACH OTHER... WE JUST KNOW EACH OTHER AS WE SHOULD. AND A BROKEN FAMILY MAY NOT LOVE EACH OTHER, CALL EACH OTHER, HATE EACH OTHER, AND EVEN MISLEAD, BUT AS LONG AS THEY STILL BREATHE, IT HAS CHANCE TO BE A DISTANT FAMILY, AND THEN GET BACK TO A CLOSE FAMILY.

AMEN

8:21a.m.

THERE IS STILL HOPE
Dec. 24. 2009

At a time where faith in the father is truly wavering this comes at a very important time. We may not be exactly where we desire but we are still alive. Life hits us with so many issues we forget to be happy for the one thing that truly matters most and that is the privilege to breathe.

I'm not where I really want to be and I dont have much. However I know that there is still hope. As long as I am still breathing. Chance is still alive and I have to take it. Just like you have to take it.

God is still in the miracle working business. The spirit of Jesus, the holyghost is still alive. It rest upon us and the price that he paid still leads us and forgives us. People there is still hope. I wish and pray that I look upon this in about three months and my blogs will be a testimony to the great things God has done...

If I have hope, trust me you too should have it.

Well Father let this day be your day and may your will be done. For by my will I fail and end up in a place of denial. But by your will I prosper and end in a place of security cause I know that YOU HOLD THE DAY... AND WHO ELSE IS BEFORE YOU..

AMEN
1:38p.m.

I'M TRUSTING YOU...

Nov.3rd. 2009

God this morning I wake up with you on my mind. I know yesterday was a very hard day for me and I told you that I was mad because I was not seeing any results. But I am so grateful, for what so many people are not and that is the world outside the four walls of my house.

Seeing people who care and people that I care about allows me to see that I do have a reason to keep pushing toward the cross and striving for the throne that I'll bow and worship one day... (OLD AGE... I PRAY LOL)

The is not a season that most people want to be in. Its a season that I hate going through. But this season draws me closer to you. This season reminds me of who you are in my life. Times where I can't hear your voice are times where I'm being tested to keep believing that I will.

AMEN

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